obviously i'm feeling 1000% better .. no more morphine, no more all the other drugs they kept pushing into me trying to make it more comfortable
i'm home and i'm comfortable (i also have the help of my liquid vicodin lol)
i hurt my esophagus and its getting better .. my doc promised me a rush discharge this morning so i made it to radiation in time .. tomorrow is my 12th radiation and my 3rd chemo .. i can't believe tomorrow is friday ..
my ex brought my daughter by the hospital last night .. we laid on the bed and i asked her just to hold on to me for a few minute so i could cry .. then i'd be all better and strong again .. i cried for a few minutes, she held on tight .. then she rubbed my feet .. a sure fire way to get me to smile :) then i got a quick call from my son making sure i was doing OK .. he said he could hear in my voice that i was doing a lot better .. he asked if it was ok if i held off getting our Christmas tree until he got home on the 19th .. we made a deal :)
i so appreciate my ex coming out of his way so i could spend time with our daughter .. i know he was uncomfortable because of his injury yet he still brought her over .. he even gave us a few minutes alone in the room so we could snuggle :)
i got absolutely nothing done on the list of office duties this week, so it looks like i'll be working well into the weekend .. lucky me eh :)
thank you for sticking by my side, for the support, prayers and encouragement .. i hope you all realize how good you are for my heart .. i don't know if i could do all this without you
38 comments:
Thank YOU for keeping us posted. You are still my hero(ine).
Pam....I'm so glad you are home and doing better. I loved the audio entry! You voice sounds so sweet! Get rest....take it easy.....and know that you are in my prayers and thoughts each day.
Pamela
I am so glad you are home:) and that your ex brought daughter to see you. Pam stay strong Praying for you
Deb
The nice thing about working from home is you can work odd hours, right? Glad you are home and feeling better :)
xoxo
Pam,
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I think you would do fine without us~as long as you have those daughter hugs ;'} Mary
I'm so glad that you got some time with your daughter. Sounds like it's just the medicine you needed to be well enough to go home.
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So glad you are back home. I hope you realize that you are just as good for our hearts as we are for your heart (if not better). I admire your strength and determination during a time like this. You are beautiful, sweet, and have a great sense of humor that inspires us and helps us to remember what's important in life. Thank you for this! I pray that you will continue to be strong and get better every single day. Thanks for sharing your life with us and for being a great friend to us. Hope you have a nice weekend!
Angel Girl...
So glad you are feeling so much better. Well, just think of me I'll be grading all weekend & next week along with you. We just got dumped with snow & I really can't go out & play with my foot etc so might as well stay in cozy & grade. Watch out for that Vicadin! :-)
That is so nice of your ex to bring your daughter by. I hope my girls still want to snuggle when they are 15. They smother me now, but I love it. Glad you are home and better.
Traci
Pam, continued well wishes and hugs from me.
Been busy, but keeping up with your adventures...
xo Phinney
pam,
praying for your continued strength.
big hug,
teri j
Ahhhhh! Am so glad that you are home and feeling alittle better. I am sure it feels good to get between your own sheets. Rest easy and get strength. Hugs your j-land friend Terry Ann
So glad you are home and comfortable. I know how special that time with your daughter was to you and the precious call from your son. Don't worry about the office work, it will all be there when you are feeling better. I think your boss will understand. You are beautiful, and don't you forget it. Hugs Barbara
Glad to see you are home now. I hope you know this is a two way street for most of us who read your journal! The only way I can describe it is that when I read your entries, I come away feeling inspired. lotsa hugs & love,
leslie
oh my marshmallow sister... I love you so very very much... I am glad you are home safely - I wish that I could have been there to tuck you into bed and feed the cats, and just hold you... I'd offer to give you a haircut, but.... well there are obvious issues there :-) Just know that I love you with all of my heart, and cherish you in my soul
Nancy
I don't think the picture is ugly at all ... You have a beautiful smile on your face. I am glad you are home. It is so much easier to rest in your own bed, surrounded by the people and things that you love. Take care, Tina http://journals.aol.com/onemoretina/Ridealongwithme
Pam,
I am so glad you were able to go home - there's no rest like the rest in your own warm bed without the excess sound effects of the hospital. Your ex gets a double gold star for his efforts!Good going! And your daughter is an angel - since many this age would rather be doing their own thing and not be hanging around Mom and Dad. You are a very blessed lady! My daughter is coming in on the 20th so we will be doing our tree right along with you - I'll be thinking of you all then! Nancy & I are still praying. Love you, Sandy
Pam, your beautiful! You give me so much strength to get through my day. Thank You so much.
Pamela,
Yeah!!! You're home! I"m glad you're feeling better. And so glad you got cuddle tim with your daughter. And ya know what, it's ok to cry.
And, further more, you most definitely could get through all of this without everyone encouraging you, cause you're tough, and you're made of good stuff, but ya know what, you don't have to. None of us are going anywhere.
Hugs,
Melissa
I am so glad you are home and are feeling better.
I know it must have been great to have your daughter there to snuggle with for a little while.
keeping you in my prayers,
Kathy
Pam wonderful to hear you are home, and you got to snuggle your daughter....You look lovely in your picture not ugly at all.....That smile of yours is beautiful...Keep strong and positive....you are in my thoughts....Ally
Dear Pam, I'm so glad to hear that you are home and doing better! Blessings, Sassy ;-) PS. Is it possible to still access all those"how-to" entries you did on AOL on improving your journal? I know you have many more important things to think about so if you don't have the time to answer--it's fine. xox
http://journals.aol.com/SassyDee50/SassysEYE
So glad your daughter was able to visit you. I guess that was the best RX there was. Glad you're home and feeling better. :) Hugs, Nelle
Hey, fuzzy! I think you gotta cut out those suicide chicken wings during the radiation treatment. Oh, and those little finger foods you get at Christmas parties...you gotta take the toothpicks out before you swallow 'em. Drop me a line if you need any more advice. (UK translations follow)
-Paul
(English translation) Hey, fouzzy! I think you goutta cout out thouse souicide chicken wings douring the radiatioun treatment. Ouh, and thouse little finger fouds you get at Christmas parties...you goutta take the touthpicks out befoure you swallouw 'em. Droup me a line if you need any moure advice.
(Scottish translation) Hey, fuzzy! I thin' you go''a cu' ou' those suicide chicken wings durrring the rrradiation trrreatment. Oh, and those li''le fingerrr foods you ge' at Chrrristmas parrrties...you go''a take the toothpicks out beforrre you swallow 'em. Drrrop me a line if you need any morrre advice.
(Irish translation) Have yourself a Guinness, dearie, and ev'rything will be alright.
Welcome home Pam. How cool was it your ex got his act together and brought your daughter to be with you, glad she was there and that your son called. Just take it easy and take care of yourself for a few days so you get your strength totally back dear. Nothing wrong with your pic, you're just one pretty lady to all of us that care about you dear. now all of us in journeyland wish we could be there to help you out, do things for you, sorry that just a cyberspace hug will have to do versus hugging you in person.........AJ
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I just want you to know that you are my hero!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Someone that I am so proud to know.
So proud to know.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so gla dyou are home!!!!
Becky
I'm glad you are feeling better.
Don't kid yourself here.
You could do ANYTHING you had to.
You are extremely strong and an amazing woman.
You do our gender proud:)
Huggs n prayers 4u-
Niki
journals.aol.com/thinkingoutloud/ThinkingOutLoud/
p.s and you are not ugly. ever!
I'm so glad you're home from the hospital, Pam. That darn radiation really can do a number on you, can't it? It's great at killing those big C cells, but it's also so hard on other parts of the body too!
I'm happy your son will be home! I'll bet you are just counting down the days! You will feel so much better just having him around! I'm sure he can't wait to be with his momma!!
Hugs to you..
Jackie
PAM, PLEASE ADD ME (BACK ON) TO YOUR LIST OF SUPPORTERS HERE.
I DIDNT FEEL RIGHT COMMENTING WITHOUT HAVING MY JOURNAL UP AND RUNNING, BUT, I HAVE KEPT UP WITH YOUR JOURNAL, AND YOUR FIGHT ALL ALONG.
I AGREE WITH THE OTHERS, YOU ARE MY HERO!! I AM ABSOLUTELY IN AWE OF YOU MY FRIEND! YOU ARE DEFINITELY GIVING THIS THING HELL. I CANT WAIT TIL YA WHIP IT.
I ASKED A LADY AT MY JOB LAST WEEK , IF I DONATED MY HAIR, COULD I REQUEST THE RECIPIENT. SHE SAID I COULDNT :(... BUT, WHEN I DO GET IT ALL CUT OFF HERE SOON, I WILL BE DONATING IT TO LOCKS FOR LOVE.
I WILL BE PRAYIN AND PULLIN FOR YA KIDDO!!
HUGS AND LOVE,
KIM.
(http://journals.aol.com/kimbellina1956/GoingMach2withMyHaironFire)
I am so glad you are home and the entry about your daughter and son is always special. Praying for the day when you get a report that all is well.
Love and Prayers
Linda
PS Merry Christmas
(((Pam))) It was great to actually hear your voice in your last entry! I'm glad you're home and can spend time with your kids. Remember... as bad as you feel right now... the cancer feels even worse! Sort of like... "you should see the other guy!" Give it hell, Pam! Hugs! Lisa
We love ya, Pam!
XO,
bridgett
Love & prayers, Beauty.
V
sorry I am so behind on my reading. I am glad you are home and better. All my love!
wow - came in late on this one -
sorry to hear of your trip to the hospital dahling...
hope you're feeling a bit better now...
love,
flora
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